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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 04:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So whats the point in blame.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One cannot live in the past .

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He resisted the act ,that day.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My family never makes their pension either.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Why do women wear less clothes compared to men?

So, i spoilt her more .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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I never cut or harmed myself..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im still living with it.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I will be 64.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

When she asked me how she looked .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

This is soul school!.

But, we were locked up after school.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

What did i know ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Put me off passion for life!!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Comes on , in middle age.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I said to her

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Especially a lifetime of it.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was scared of men, in general

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I could never make a relationship work though!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

My life is so biszare .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I don,t even have a pension.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

All the time i was locked up.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was very sick at this time too.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And i lived it daily.

I waited trembling.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He knew the spot.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She was in good health!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Ive learnt so much.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

It was going to be , some day.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Who then, do I blame.?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was 9 years of age.

But it wasn’t much.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I write beautiful poetry .

She found it foreign!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I have no regrets .

Would this be the day?

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She married twice! .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I think the readers, may guess!

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She loved him until the end.

I was seconnd youngest,

She wouldn,t have been !

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were not on the streets..

We all went to grammer schools

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.